He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he gaze long into the abyss... only to find his own reflection.

Confessions of a Cutter (Self-Harm)

by Cutter

I cannot this time forget.
For if I do the pain shall repeat.
Trauma teaches one to forget.

These posts, in keeping with this website's format, are copies of journal entries written over a number of years, by someone who is into "self harm", or, more to the point, someone who cuts himself with various razors and knives.

Cuts that draw blood and make scars. Sort of like "girls" who make cuts on their arms — but in Cutters' case, the cuts tend to be vicious "body hacks" all over — and on the arms too.

These posts will be... are: Raw. Hurtful. Painful. Bloody.

This is me. It should not be you. The worst thing you can do is what I have done.

Watch out. Reader discretion is advised.

Posts are, currently, in reverse order — i.e. first to last. Other options will be available sooner or later...

Writing Down the Pain
I'd like just once to fall asleep feeling good about myself. Just once. Drunken stupors do not count.